I know there are lots of lists out there like this, I know because I read lots of them before Judah was born. But I figured I’d make my own because that’s what moms do. And at least I’ll try and not duplicate any.
10) Desitin (or any diaper rash cream) doesn’t “rub in”
Seriously, this is something that with a college degree I should have been able to deduce considering the intended function. However, it wasn’t and that’s how I ended up with two tons of Desitin on both hands and looking for places to wipe it besides the already thickly layered bottom of my infant son.
9) It’s OK to not feel the love
And I don’t just mean the first few hours or even the first few days. I felt like the worst mom ever because although I felt this incredible attachment it didn’t feel like love. I felt protective and wanted to care for him but I didn’t feel like I loved Judah at first. A friend of mine helped me put it in perspective – I didn’t really love Josh atfirst, did I? It took time and he could walk and talk and feed himself. The love will come. And on that note…
8) The “baby blues” is NOT like PMS
I had read about the baby blues before Judah was born and figured “oh IF I experience that, it’ll be just like my other hormonal times. I’ve been pregnant for the past 9 months, how different could it be?” Um, no. First of all, you WILL experience the blues – especially if it’s your first baby and it may not happen in the first three days but it will happen. Now, I’ve obviously been dealing with postpartum depression but there’s not much help I can offer on this on other than, like most things I’ve learned about motherhood, it’s just something that you have to get through. If you start having crazy emotions (like massive anxiety or tears) more often than not and they occur just as much when your mom is holding your sweet sleeping babe as 2am when he just won’t stop crying… that’s when I’d call your doctor.
7) All the prepping in the world is fun but…
You’re hopelessly naive. And I can say that because I’m saying it about myself. I just flipped over to Pinterest and saw a pin about organizing home for baby – I clicked on it (because I’m weird and LOVE organizing) and almost laughed reading and seeing all these pictures of how this woman was preparing for her first baby. Don’t get me wrong, it was all very nice but the baby feeding station that looked so cute and organized? Yeah, that’ll last the first night. It might resurface again after several months but the reality is that baby stuff will be wherever it gets left (or your wonderful mom cleans it and puts it somewhere).
6) Your Marriage Will Change
Drastically. In the beginning it may not be as noticeable because you are both in survival mode. I love Josh and the way he stepped up in those first few weeks I could never have imagined. Then, after a few months, life takes on a new normal and that solid team effort may not be as evident. For us, our relationship required more work than it did before Judah was born. I don’t really know why but I do know that, like everything, it’s a season and we’ve worked and wrestled through a lot of it and I think we’re on the “good side” now.
5) Sleep when the baby sleeps
Oh, you knew that one? Ok, are you an extrovert? Do you live in a 2 bedroom condo? Because if you do, you’re REALLY going to have to work to put yourself to sleep when your baby sleeps. I didn’t for the first WEEK AND A HALF of Judah’s life. I didn’t nap hardly at all during the day because I wanted to interact with the people coming over, I had doctor visits for me and for him and, something they don’t tell you, there’s almost an adrenaline rush that keeps you going for a couple of days after the birth. And if you do that, you’re going to physically hit a wall like I did. Couple that with any possible postpartum depression and you’re headed for a dark place emotionally.
4) If you’re in the hospital, it’s OK to send the baby to the nursery
Looking back, I realize this is something I wish I would have had a little more forceful encouragement for. I’d just given birth and, while the labor wasn’t super long, I then spent several hours getting repaired. I was ecstatic to finally get to spend time with Judah but I’d also been up for more than 24 hours and my body had been through a lot. I could have really used a chance to nap, even just for an hour or two, and you know what? That wouldn’t have made me a bad mom. Which brings me to…
3) You will feel guilty about EVERYTHING
And it’s probably not accurate. I felt guilty for any minute I wasn’t holding Judah which fed the not sleeping which wasn’t good for either of us. I felt guilty for needing Josh to do so much because I physically couldn’t move. I felt guilty for the tears I had over not being able to stop him from crying or for wondering what I had got myself into. This is also one of those things you just have to get through, I don’t know that the guilt will ever stop but trust the ones you love that tell you what a good job you’re doing and how so many things are normal.
2) The weird things that will matter to you (and the things that won’t)
Baby outfits matching. Bedtime stories. The Today Show. Yes, these are all things that matter to me! I know Judah sooo does not care if his outfit matches but I totally do – even if we’re just staying in the house. Watching the Today Show is part of my routine and I feel like my day is all thrown off if I don’t watch at least part of it. New toys. Family photos. These are things that don’t matter to me all that much – of course, they would be nice but I don’t stress about them much. Moral of the story? There are thousands of different lists that will tell you what you HAVE to have and what you can pass and the truth is, everyone is different so if you really want that wipe warmer, go for it!
1) It will never get easier, but it will get different
I can’t remember who originally said this to me but it’s absolutely true. For instance, I don’t have to worry about waking up 3 or 4 times a night because Judah is hungry and needs to eat but he’s teething so sometimes he barely eats during the day and I worry about that. I can feel confident going out to Target because Judah will be happy and content playing or watching the people but he no longer will just fall asleep anywhere when he’s tired (unless he’s really REALLY tired). I know I’ll be saying this for the rest of his life. And parts will be easier (like sleeping at night, having set naps, not needing to eat every 2 hours) and parts will be hard (we’re starting to learn boundaries, teething, attempting to roll away during diaper changes) but my perspective is getting longer which makes it easier.